From my private notes

This last week has really pushed me to limits I rarely explore - in good and bad terms, Alhamdulillah. It has showed me weakness but definitely also some strenght I didnt really know I had. The fact that my family and I got so sick just before my travel, was really fustrating. Our family has not settled down completely, so there was really big emotions to handel. I didnt have the chance to be with my kids as much as I wanted and I didnt had a chance to finish all the cores around the house, as I had in mind. So I came back to Denmark, and just had a couple of days to take care of some practical things before staring up my study. Now I have anxiety. I dont like to be in new places, starting new things up that are out of my comfort zone ( and this teacher thing is way out of my comfortzone) and definitely not being around so many people I dont know.. let alone the fact that I have to talk to them!!! But you know what? everything turned out just fine. My kids are back to health

The last 4 days or so has been Grey, windy, rainy.. We eveb had hail and on the highest peaks of the mountains around here there was some snow. No Wonder it so cold. When there is snow on the mountains the whole. City feels like a freezer.  The flu came and and took us all by surprice and now the whole family are cuttled up underneath blanckets. Its a bit stressful now when im trying to prepare my travel, but I try my best to relax and feel better.. Times like this its really important to remember the blessings of being sick and in generel have a close relationsship with Allah. Do not curse fever for it takes away the sins og the son of Adam  as the furnace removes waste from iron  ~ sahih muslim We had been living on soups and hot drinks. Specially a helbal te called malwisa mixed with some oregano is really good for relaxing and killing the germs. Also Olive oil has good for healing the store throat. Unfortunally we are out of Black seed pil and Honey... What

I was really going to write this post yesterday, but instead I ended using half the day trying to buy air tickets.... Alhamdulillah I managed to get hold on them and my travel is now official Time has gone by so quickly. Its already 3 months since I came back to morocco. 3 months where we have been preparing for our new life. Now time has come and it is time for me to leave to start my education. There is a lot to prepare, both here and in Denmark, and while trying to prepare everything I also need to be fully available for my family. Emotions is running a bit high at the moment . Even if i'm only going to be away for around a month, it is still long time now when My baby is still small. My toddler to young to understand that mama is coming back soon, and the big once afraid that I Will end up stuck in Denmark long time like last year. While i'm trying to cope with all the kids emotional break outs, I also have to control my own. Its really difficult to stay strong a

Good Morning out there. Don't you just love something hot to drink, specially now during the cold winter mornings? I sure do! SInce I was a little girl i've always loved the lovely scent of coffee filling the house. It was something that could get me out of bed immediately. But the taste, no thanks.. therefore i've always considered myself as a tea person. Lately i've discovered a new love in the morning....yes coffee. But not the traditional, just coffee and water like in the west. This one has added spoices, and that for me has made the difference. It all started one morning when we´ve just moved in here. As i was going out in our small yard, I found the fresh air filled with this amazing scent of fresh brewed coffee and toasted bread. So I asked my hubby to bring coffee and he did. It actually took my a while before i wanted to taste it, but when I did I was hooked. I haven't been drinking anything else in the morning since. Breakfast has somet

Allah does not close a door on a servant with His wisdom,  except that He opens two doors for him with His mercy  -ibn qayyim ra Have you ever felt like door after door are being closed in your face, and it seems like there are no escaping from your situation. You have to accept it and work with what you have right her and now. I believe most people have.... my self included. Latest, I was stuck in this situation was when we where making plans for coming back here to morocco. For lets face it- i had my fair share of trying moving to morocco and I really had lost ever hope about this being the place to settle. So here I was, still trying to get back you my self after delivering my daughter, who also happened to have colic-ish stomach pains the first 4 month, and hubby trying to convince me to try Morocco one more time. While I was thinking everything over, I remembered a sister who had made Hijra several times. Travelled so many places, but for some reason it never worke

We are almost halfway through wintertime and the last couple of weeks has been freezing. Yes I said freezing! Morocco can have some pretty cold winters, depending on where in the country you are. Many mountain areas has snow every winter, near the sea its very windy but the temperature does not change as much between day and night as fx in sahara areas. In Oujda where we live, we have a bit of many things. At the moment we have huge temperature changes during day and night, with temperature during the day lays around 15-19 degree centius, then dropping just below freezing point during night. Luckily, most days have been sunny, so after at good walk you will feel all warm again. Staying inside the house all day can not be recommended! Most houses are poorly isolated so it is really more cold inside than out. I can not tell you how many times I've been making the mistake of putting too much close on me and my children when going out because we have been in all morning. The a